A special congrats to a certain girl out there who now officially has a certain someone...I am really happy for you.....

This week has been a crazy week...I just don't know how to explain what I went through this week...I just know I had some very wonderful people to help me through this week and help me sort out everything...thanks a lot JJ and TG and JE...I have decided to take some time off from softball (about a week)...so I can catch up on some of my work and to do good on my 2 tests next week...I just need the break to be able to get off of rock bottom....

This week I was not myself...just want to apologize to those I snapped at or blew up at...I did not mean to and normally I have that under control....I promise I won't do that again....

back to the wonderful world of homework....I wish that there would be a day where professors assign no homework....a national holiday of no homework

i have been really busy this week....i also have been really frustrated with life and softball and school...i will write more when i have time and i am feeling better

today has been one of those busy days that you have no time to sit down to rest until late but you can't relax because you have so much to do....we had 2 softball games today...we won both of them (6-2, 6-5)...our record now is 7-11....this is pretty good considering the final record for last year was 5-25....our conference record is 3-7...we need to improve that this weekend when we play ETBU....it was pretty exciting games....it was also a nice day for softball games...we travel to dallas to play on weds...i can't wait till I get somewhat of a break and i can actually attend physics class....I need to get back to homework before it gets too late...have an awesome day tomorrow.....

i just realized how blessed i am with the friends i have...life would be terribly boring without them....i have an awesome roommate who has been there for me and has kept be sane this semester...i also have some really awesome guy friends here on campus....even though they tease me(which i don't mind at all), i really enjoy hanging out with them....then there is this new guy friend (the same one i wrote about yesterday and friday)....i was just chatting with him online for the last four hours i think...i know it was a long time....things are cool between us....i am so happy for that....through these various friends life is a lot of fun...without them...i don't know what i would do....i go to them when i am in a good mood or in a bad mood....they are those that i cherish and would not do anything to hurt them...i just remember the song "friends are friends forever".....that is what i hope we will be....i will never trade them for anything else....God gave them to me and i thank Him for them every single day of my life

remember the conversation I talked about in one of the last posts...well....i talked to him again tonight....this afternoon i received an e-mail from him explaining his reasons for his actions last night...the e-mail somewhat helped....i had to read it a couple of times to understand it...it seemed to me that he was trying to explain his reasons why without really explaining it....if you understand what I mean...i e-mailed him back some responses....pretty much i was like its forgiven....time to move on.....that is how i am with things...i cannot seem to hold grudges or be angry with anyone....life is no fun being angry at other or holding grudges...its like what sid said in ice age "i am to lazy to hold grudges"...that is how I am

Anyways...we talked about the conversation from last night...he was able to explain himself a little bit better...since he has never met me in person....he wanted to know if how i interacted with him was the way i interacted with other guys...of course it is.....i treat every guy the same..so once we got that figured out....we went on to have an really good conversation....we talked about what makes us "tick" or we enjoy doing....something of the things he said corresponded with what i said but on a different level if you understand what i mean....so things are cool between the two of us....life has gone on and its like the conversation last night did not really happen....

i feel confident now that God really wants me to go to indonesia this summer...if you would like any information about the trip or would like to support me....please let me know....anyways...its off to bed for me i go....i want to get a good night sleep before church tomorrow...